So recently I failed, Yes I failed. This wasn’t my first failure but second or maybe third or maybe fourth- I've lost count It took me a lot of courage to accept this failure. Accepting it in front of the mirror, accepting in front of family, accepting in front of the world and writing this piece took me a lot of courage to gather the courage to accept boldly.
This event felt like
I was burning to ashes.
My wish was shattered,
My life got scattered,
I’m continually falling apart
While always wondering, is this a part?
I was here to make an impact
But maybe my thoughts were always defect,
I am trying hard to hold Myself
Only on the damn trust of Thyself
Will I rise from this ashes?
Leaving myself a question to ponder. Will I rise from this ashes? Maybe Yes or Maybe No
Now in this situation, I am left with two roads and I have to choose any of them. Making a conscious choice here is way more important because my life ahead depends on what I choose today. In future, I do not want to regret the road not taken.
The roads I am left with are
Try and Wonder
Cry and Wander
If I try today and believe in myself and the process I am going to wonder in future about the blessings I receive, and about the goals I achieve. But if I only cry and wander I am not getting anything soon, even after days of crying I will find myself at the same place with zero goals achieved and with a mind filled with negativity.
I haven’t chosen any path yet, but I am sure I will choose the first path only. Currently, I am waiting for every day to unfold a new page, and let me wonder what more treasure this life holds.
Ideally, everybody should choose the first path only. Because when you believe in yourself when you trust the universe you see the magic happening around you. But once you start crying over the happenings and play the blame game, the Game is Over.
As they say, Time and Tide wait for none, I won’t say I am back on the track, but I am putting small efforts to do something because I have yet to explore my path, explore my IKIGAI.
Again as they say Little by little fills the pot, so I believe the small efforts that I am making today will surely lead me to a great path someday. The only thing that I can do right now is Trust and feel gratitude for everything that I have and I don’t have. Certainly, if I haven’t received my desired thing yet then something better awaits.
At first, I felt like I was burning to ashes. I went through a lot of self-doubts, and a lot of questions but none were answered. I don’t know if I will get those answers anytime soon, but what I learned from a conversation from a literary graphic of Horse, Boy, mole and the Fox is when the boy says I cannot see the way ahead, the horse asks Can you see the next step? The boy replied Yes. The horse said Just take that.
So I am going to just take that step which is ahead of me. I know this phase will help me to rise again from those ashes like a phoenix.
I hope if you are in the same boat as me, you find your peace and IKIGAI soon. Trust Yourself, Trust the universe as it will do magic. Wait for the Magic to Happen.
Leaving you all with a question …. Does the universe do magic? I believe it does.