That Never Leads To Something Serious
I love robes – they are comfortable and make me feel beautiful. I have one with a floral print that attracts attention wherever I go. It shows my inner power and character strength that attract insecure people who want to use me. The funny thing in life is the kind people who inspire others and do everything alone, not disturbing their friends, lovers, or whoever, end up as used and lonely daydreamers. Yes, the helping crown is solitary to wear.
The facts I found out while watching today’s sunrise and wearing my floral robe, attracting attention from the wrong place, were clear.
From a young age, I was an outsider and attracted people because my family was richer than the middle class. Many schoolmates envied me and wanted to come closer to me because material reasons. In love, the person who reached out to the romantic prospect was me. I didn’t mind coming to the man I like, telling it to him, and moving on. I had no time to waste and today I am the same way in terms of hours management.
The first rejections were painful until I accepted them as something ordinary. Looking back, I feel no regrets about my doings, but the difference is today I will not do it anymore because I know my worth.
Going back to the facts about Floral Robes that attract attention from the wrong place, I name them: short-term commitments, illusionary romance, and hiding from the truth.
Short-Term Commitments
One of the important lessons, when people learn while they are single, is their willingness for a short or long-term commitment. If they choose long, they will have problems like mine because the masses do not want serious relationships, but only flings to prove themselves they’re still worthy of opposite-sex attention or a one-night stand. That is easier and leads to a lack of boredom and engagement.
After a while, short-term commitment will prove unworthy because people will face challenges they can’t overcome on their own at some point. On the other side, the experiences will be different and new. At an older age, a short-term relationship means death alone, and that is a fact.
Going from one bed to another brings sexual experience, but not a soul connection. Deep inside, everyone wants their souls to be touched even if they do not admit it.
Illusionary romance
There are a lot of complexes in Psychology – Brunhilda, Electra, Oedipus, Narcissus, etc. that create unrealistic partnership expectations and imagination’s love stories. Of course, everyone has principles for the lover they choose, but a realistic view is needed. Illusionary romances are not bad for a while but it comes at a time when people are tired of going alone everywhere. The imaginary lover is not physically by the side of the person, bringing uncertainty and loneliness.
In the early stages of a breakup, I used my imagination to paint a lover in my head until my heart healed, and it didn’t work.
Hiding From The Truth
The Floral Robe I love to wear shows positivism and a never-ending fight for a better life. As a soldier in my daily life sometimes I hide from the truth because it helps me to keep fighting. Doing that doesn’t change the facts about my financial struggle and attracts the wrong male’s attention on my side. Even so, I keep wearing my floral robe, accepting the situation I am in and looking for a way out.
People love shiny and motley clothes, jewels, and personalities. They attract them as moths to a flame. Usually, that blaze burns the one wearing the floral robe, containing enthusiasm, expectation, inspirational speech, and unrealistic beliefs.
In terms of Romance, the truth is simple – love is for those who see the potential partner as their person mutually.
The example I can give from my experience is not good because I attract insecure and emotionally unavailable men. Doing the same mistakes to save someone and take his problems as mine made me a man’s supporting rock. I forgot what it’s like to be a desired lover, who men should take care of when needed. In that way of thinking, today I am highly uncertain if I am male in a female body or a woman who should not overstep her feminine identity but stays on her own because there are no partners to lift her.
In the professional term, I am a motivational writer and inspirator, but that doesn’t bring me worth anymore as a woman who wears her floral robe of positive vibes.
Sitting in my singlehood, I accept it as routine, which will not change anytime soon because I am tired of attracting males who do not see me as their potential partner, giving hope and building up others’ self-esteem.
That costs me a lot of personal energy, so I will wear my floral cloth only for my child without doing any first steps toward anyone anymore because I am indeed fed up, with attracting attention from the wrong place and giving chances to men that do not use them properly. I stopped doing the first steps toward someone a few months ago. In my current life situation, I feel poor both financially and emotionally.
Many years ago, when I moved into my current town for love, I became closer to poverty-problematic people than the middle-class. However, there are things I will never give up for anyone or anything, and they are my pride, dignity, and honor. They are all I have today, and I will not sell them for insincere love or writing opportunities for the mass.
After a while, I will probably show my floral robe again to some males, but not soon. I hope then it will attract the attention of the right place.